This Little Thing

~ Growing up with problems like everyone does you try to manage them, solve them, get rid of them, ignore them, medicate them or eradicate them.  You try and try and try but again and again and again its always this little thing that keeps popping up, sticking out and tripping you up.  Its as if everything would be fine if it wasn't for this One Little Thing that always gets in the way.  Its there in the back of your mind, quiet and out of place, a dissonance you have no choice but to view as a problem, an issue, something very serious that needs to be handled and dealt with.  And you try and you try and you try but it seems to be invincible or something, and the more you pay attention to it the more you realize the insidious nature of it, this funny little glitch inside you that you have to cut yourself out of or remove otherwise its going to thwart your entire existence for all time.  But what is it that I'm talking about?  In truth I can't even really explain it because I don't know what it is, but I know its there, I feel it there in utter defiance of all that is and a total nightmare in this dream I call life.  I know its there and I try to hide it, deny it, ignore it, bury it, lie about it, medicate it, hoping eventually it'll just disappear, hoping it'll just go away and leave me alone, but it doesn't, it won't, it's still there.  I can even completely forget about it not even have thought about it but that never means that I lose it, it never means it goes away.  Its not intrusive but its there, always, a reminder of something we'd rather forget ~